Isolation

When I step away from the keyboard and think... what I do is extraordinarily complicated, difficult, and overwhelming. There are countless things to be done, and I have to either do them myself very quickly or delegate them elegantly. Different kinds of pressure come from both inside and outside.

Perhaps I have managed to keep doing it because I can forget everything around me. Overdue tasks, upcoming deadlines, unpaid bills, a broken dishwasher at home, even sick parents, my mental health... if I give a shit about all of them, I cannot get anything done, which means things can never get better.

Identify what matters - focus on the work itself. Let its own logic and organic movement take over, and ride that flow with my body and mind. Started as a necessity, turned into a habit, now an ingrained ability. Keep finishing one thing after another.

Am I really learning to forget, or unconsciously stacking them somewhere deep in my heart?